Contentment

"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, 'Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.' " Hebrews 13:5

"and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right have of the throne of God." Hebrews 12:1b-2

Wow those are some powerful verses, being content with what you have, and fixing our eyes on Jesus the author and perfector of our faith. Yikes! Those are two things that I struggle with on a daily basis. Especially right now, my heart is not content I want to be done with school and on to the next phase of my life, I want to get out and see the world, travel, live my life to the fullest! Have a never ending supply of money so that I can do everything that I want to do.
But bringing myself back to reality I have SO much to be thankful for, such as, an amazing family who is always there for me no matter what, I have a car that runs, a great school, amazing friends, a house, warm bed, and most recently God gave me a job that I have wanted for such a long time! I got a job at a christian bookstore and coffee shop called reachout! I have always wanted to work there, and God worked it all out so that I can! and yet even though I have all of these things to be SO thankful for, I still want more and am not content with were I am in my life and with what I have.
So my prayer is that God will give me a heart of contentment and with joy for life and the amazing life that I live! To be open to new things that He brings into my life, to not be afraid to not always know what is going to happen next. Be open to spontaneous unplanned events and life changing experiences. And most of all to love life and to life it to the Max and to live a life that brings honor and glory to God! A life of contentment.

Being yourself

Well right now I feel as though I am in a rut, between who I am and who people expect me to be. I say that because when I went off to college some of my views on things changed and not in a bad way by any means. But in the way that I was finding things out for myself instead of just believing things that I had heard. Such things as why I believe the things I do concerning my faith. And I feel as though people expect me to be the same as I was before I went to school, and so now that I know that I am not, I feel like I can't be my true self. Kinda like im hiding under a mask or something. I hate that feeling, feeling like a hypocrite, the worst feeling. I guess I just feel like because ive changed a little that they won't except it or something. But my mom always tells me to be myself!!! A constant battle! But a battle that is needed to be fought and conquered! What it all comes down to is trusting God!! I say that because if I don't feel like I am doing anything wrong and that I am doing what I feel as though God wants me to do, then it doesn't matter what others think at all. And I do feel like I am doing what God is wanting me to be doing. So I need to trust in Him! I just have this need that I don't like it when people don't like me so I guess I am a people pleaser to an extent. Which isn't good either. So I am learning to trust God and know that through Him everything will be ok and that He has it all under control!!
"So we are always of good courage. We know that while we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord, for we walk by faith, not by sight." 2 Cor. 5:6-7

Walk by Faith

Well I haven't ever had a blog before, but my friends have told me that I needed to start one because they are fun and a good way to write whats on your mind and if people want to read it they can, if not then thats fine to!
So whats on my mind... well a lot of things are always on my mind. There are always a million things on my mind. But lately the biggest thing that has been on my mind is a possible job. Currently I am an teachers aid for a kindergarten teacher here in town, and I love working for her because she is an awesome person and an amazing teacher! and those kinderbeaners are just so darn cute I can't take it! But what I really want to do with my life is to own my own coffee shop and lil bakery with it and sell muffins and breakfasty things that are gluten free since my mom has celiacs disease. So right now I am a double major at school for Marketing and Management and after I graduate I plan to go on for Culinary. Which brings me back to my whole reason for saying all of that.... the current job possibility! Well... this past friday, June 3rd I had an interview at a local Christian book store and coffee shop for a position there and I feel like the interview went great! The lady was very sweet and I felt like I could talk to her like Ive known her for a long time and if I could work there that would be my ideal job, since I want to own my own coffee shop one day. What makes it even better is that I want my own coffee shop to have the christian atmosphere to it as well. So if I could get this job it would be an amazing opportunity! I was suppossed to find out if I got it on Monday, June 6th but she called and told me that they were behind and that they would get back to me on Wednesday. So I am very thankful that she called and told me that, but I am anxious to find out and for it to be wednesday already! haha But God's got it all in his hands and He has everything planned out, so I just have to trust in him and to live a life of Faith and to know that know matter what happens Hes got my back and got an even better plan that I can even imagine!
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understandings. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6